Comfort Me.

I look in the mirror and wonder what you see
In this pathetic, fucked up mess that is me
Because what you say is beauty, vibrance, and life
I say is ugly, weak, and not right

I show you my soul, or what there is left
From all the years of self-hate and neglect
I notice you staring and I want to run
From the judgmental look I know you have on

But your hand grasps mine lightly, keeping me here
I'm afraid how soothing it is to me that your near.
Because I know you're going to leave me alone
I'm useless to you, trust me I know

"You are too good for me, this monster, this mess
I have too many flaws to possibly address
I'm selfish and needy and hateful and lost
Being with me is just too great a cost

I'll drag you down and hold you back…"
But a finger on my lips stops my attack
He smiles at me and pulls me close
Whispering in my ear I mean the most,

"You are adorable, smart and crazy
Everything about you I find so amazing
Why do you do this? Why do you hate,
Yourself and the things that make you so great?"

I shook my head and started to cry
But he lifted my chin and looked into my eyes.
And that's when I saw all the love that he had
For the person I thought was nothing but bad

How much he means to me, I don't think he knows
But I pray to God he never lets go.